boring..

huhu..i feel very 'down' today.. don't know why..so down.fell like breaking down and cry..just now, i passed by the ICU wad..i saw this one family, hugging and calming each other..they were crying..oh My lord..feels like it was my burden too..and guess what, my eyes is already with tears... my PCR aren't going well but, i don't think that's the reason why.. then, I've been thinking about me, furthering my master in this project that I'm handling right now..hesitate about the potential within me..feel the fear about the situation that I'm going to face in front of all the fellows..or the ethics committee when I'm presenting my proposal to them..oh MY LORD...
then, i talk to myself..am i in the right track right now? am i really gonna do this? am i? i want to do this..but I'm afraid that i couldn't make it..just like my degree final year project..it's keep haunting me..and bugging me...fears are against my determination...
huhuhu...
why..................................................................................

Astronauts

hhu..everybody were busy this morning..
the astronauts are coming
i'm going to have the chance to meet them..huhu.it's live...for real..hahaha
then, the reporter were from all over the place. in malaysia..hahaha
glamorous...(^-^) hahaha
what ever..

huhu, i miss Mr Yamashita and Ishida..huhu
mr Yamashita died a day after Ishida..
then, after i keep it as a secret from ain, i told her on friday..but that was after she told me, about her fish...hhuhu..died already...waaa...Waa.a...a...aaa..

i want to buy, couple of new fishy...huhu

ISHIDAaaaaAAaa... =q

my dear ishida has passed away this morning. what a bad news to start the day. don't no why.. i've take care of him pretty well. but maybe it's just not well enough..huhu.
mr Yamashita is alone right now.. huhu. i'm regret, because i still didn't get the chance to buy them, their new home..huhu
don't dare to tell ain the news..still keeping it to myself, blogie, asfa n khaty..huh, that lots of people..hehe..waaaaa...waa... (continue crying)
don't have the mood to work for today..huhu
maybe it's thursday? maybe it's because of Ishida? or maybe something else? huh, if my bos know about this, i wonder, he must be mengamuk.hehe..
huh, pray that he won't be..

boring!!!!

i'm boring..

Fishyyyyy..

Yesterday, ain bought me a pair of fish..well, both of us really doesn't so sure about their gender..so, i just assume them as 'pair' hehe..
i'm so happy... then, i give ain an honour to named one of them. there it goes, mr Yamashita..hehe. well, that's the only name that she could come out with.
then, i decide to creat their birth certificate..haha. crazy!
hm, it took me the whole day to think of the other name for my other fish.. Sunade? Inoue? shikamaru? huh.. those character doesn't suit my fish..huhu..so i go with ISHIDA..haha. feel like it's a nice name for my fish..really? maybe =p

there it goes...about my fishy.now i have to find the very best 'balang' for my fish..huhu, have to wait for my salary.huhu

To Mr yamashita and Ishida..love you both..
hope both of you are happy to get me as your owner.. =p

proPoSaL..MeeTinG..PriMeR

been busy? doesn't seem like I'm busy.haha
'buat2 bz'
I've submitted my proposal to prof, last week..tend to find a primer to optimize my gene..don't have any idea what prof think about it.
huuh..
missed my time when i was a student. it's true when people said, the most amazing moment in life,once you are a student..
miss the time, rushed to classes.missed my classmate..

this morning, I've found out that I'm going to have my journal presentation on 7th september. am i ready yet? even my project aren't started yet..huhu
then, a 'big' maybe that my convocation is on 8th september. erk...

so many gene, so much to study..and so...malas..haha

miss mY bloggie

huhu..
it's been a month since i last jotting down here. huhu. really miss my bloggie =p
many thing happen in this 1 month. huhu. now, i'm working in HUKM, under UMBI.. doing the molecular biology.. still have to study genetic. huhu, forgot already..

what am i doing?

---> MTHFR polymorphisms and the development of acute leukemia: Does it really matter?

kind off..
ngahaha..

almost a month but still cant figure out what am i going to do with this project... huhu... Target to do my proposal this weekend.. huhu.. craving for 'hardworking' me..hahaha

the man you love

find this lyric facinating...

when you look in my eyes
do you feel it in yout soul?
do you not realise
you're the half that make me whole
everything that i am, i'll give it all to you
put my heart in your hands
there's nothing i won't do
for the chance just to live inside your heart
and understand the woman that you are
chorus:
i only wanna be the man
to give you everything i can
every day and every night
baby for all my life
i don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough
just to be the man you love
be the place where you run
when the walls come tumbling down
be the rock you lean on
when you can't find solid ground
be your love and your friend
abd all that's in between
from now on 'till the end
it's only you and me
i wanna hear your secrets
and your wildest dreams
wipe your tears..kiss you tenderly
just to be your man

maybe, it seems like too many to ask.. but, if there's really someone like that...

bilogical change....train...

hye2..i'm back.
i think my biological system have change. well, not all of them, but something like false alarm for hungriness, sleeping time..erk?really?
ok, for the hungriness; i feel hungry all in a sudden and it's early in the morning. it's not that 8 am early in the morning huh..it's 6am in the morning. 6AM!!! huh, so cruel!
and i think i know why.. i've stressed out with many thing in my mind. my abnormalities,well somebody have said so..ngahaha. and, about what i'm doing right now. am i really taking the risk? and could i really do it? if it wasn't me, who else will do it for the sake of nation? then, is it the best choice that i make? did i choose it because of the fame? because of everybody were doing it? or it's really me. the 1 who really craving for that?hmmm...what if, there are another good chances coming up? it's all about the money huh? huhu.. :'(
oh Lord..please. i want to stick my heart to this. please make me strong..aminnn
my love life was disaster. i mean, for loving a man. huh. it's quit difficult to understand them. or it's just me? ngahaha. when we love them, they just runaway. when we don't, they just hanging on there. i've been tired of it. sometimes i just want to stop..right now... i feel like i do! or should i just go with the flow? arghhh...

out of the topic. when u seat in the train, backward..do u notice like, everything is moving slower than when you are seating forward? do u? or it's just me? hehe
you should try.. well, exclude the dizziness, it's quit fun :)

working day...

huhu.. it's working day again. well, i have a responsibilities towards my job.hehe angle (^_^)
congrats to my aunt who just getting engage,to my Chinese friends.. happy Chinese new year.

it's feb 14

well, it's february 14 here.. so,i'll be wishing all people in the world.. happy valentine's day

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my dear bloggie

it's been a while, ops.. a month since my last submission. ngahaha. well, i've got a job now. permanent? no.. temporary. hope for a better offer. if there's a chance, looking 4wd for master.he =p
i'm proud of myself today, well. even i'm sleepy.hee.
i;ve got here on my own. hahaha. simple thing to be proud of..

here again!!!

hye2
i'm here again in kl. it's been 3 weeks since i took off from this busy city. nghahaha like it make a different! anyway, i'm here again. maybe again and again and again. hahaha. hahaha. ok then thats all. huh. tired!
bye2..